Let me give you a vivid picture...
In March of 2003, I was in a very different time of my life. Growing up in a home with a struggling single mother and two sisters (1 older, 1 younger) wasn't very easy. I'm ever so gracious that I'm not here telling you a story of how I was sexual, mental, or physically abused. My mother was a very strict and protective parent.. Aka.. In the house before the street lights are on. We struggled as an African American family who was determined not to let the woes of life keep us from succeeding. Nevertheless, we made it. We all have people and situations in our lives that we have to be thankful for.
My sisters and I had our fair share of sibling rivalry, arguments, and stealing each others clothing (or boyfriend). My oldest sister started having children (4) at a young age (16). My mother began to focus her attention there. My little sister begin to lose interest in school and show her discontentment with my mother's decision to move us into a "better neighborhood", which meant changing schools. I, on the other hand, was dealing with an issue no one knew about.
On September 11, 2001, my world changed. Life as I knew it was different and would never be the same. After hearing about the terror attacks, a fear that I had no clue existed arose within me. A fear that I couldn't speak of before now. I felt like I was losing myself in the drama that took place in my family and I felt as if the country I took so much pride in had just been violated. 11 years later I have learned to concur my fears. I've learned my faith in God is nothing if I am fearful. I'm no super woman but I'm learning to pray for protection, salvation, and patience.
At the time when my self esteem was at an all time low, my families struggles had become too much for my mind to grasp, and the world had just thrown a curve ball at me, I met my her.
Fast forwarding to 2012. Kellie and I are still together and have made more progress together than we could have ever imagined. We listened to people tell us we didn't belong together. We fought tooth and nail to be in the same place. Now we have our own place. There hasn't been a time when I needed her to be there for me and she wasn't. I can't even say that for some of my own family members. Anytime I've been down about something, she jumps through hoops and over hurdles to make sure I am content. We share our thoughts, feelings and love for one another in a way that only we can truly understand. We spoil each other and cater to each others needs like nobody's business. I'm in good spirits because I am in a great place in my life. I'm not living a lavish life style, I don't have everything I want, heck I've gone without having something's need but I'm grateful. You always hear people say they wish they could have told someone how much they love them while they were alive. Well, Kellie and myself are alive and well and I want her to know that no matter what I do, where I am ( Heaven or earth) my love for her will always remain. I love her whole heartedly and cannot wait to turn our dreams into a reality.
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